I’ve never understood the scripture “He will never place more upon us than we can handle.” Perhaps God doesn’t place it upon us but perhaps Satan or the world or just plain physical suffering will. I know you said that you’ve waited for 40 years. I would say that you are thinking rationally. Help us to be eternity minded because Your gift is eternal life in Jesus. God is real and God loves you, but God often works through human beings. It was rough it hurt and I was miserable for months. They brought back the next day. It’s so painful! Thanks for your comment, Barry. Suicide can be very appealing, and Satan will try to persuade you that it is the answer to your problems. Faith Lost In God The book Night by Elie Wiesel, tells a story about a young religious boy who begins to lose his faith in God at such an early age. Again, I hope and pray this encourages you even just a little ð. I still read my devotional and pray every night and morning but I just donât feel it. He is the only one who can help us. that he turned his back on me. He knew you before even the earth was born. He invites us to share our struggles with him and he will give us rest. But low and behold…the next season it has tons of fruit. However, the Word of God surely took root in me when I started getting along with my grandparents and older brother, who has Down Syndrome. I gave myself to Jesus about 40 years ago;I thank God for Jesus and His sacrifice for our eternal souls, but can’t find anything to be thankful for in this existence. I have been struggling with doubt about God for a long time. I need help man. I knew he was there and took great comfort in that. Miriam and Aaron oppose Moses - Exodus 12, but are restored. God help you, God help us all to throw off the weights that so easily entangle us. I admit that these words are very harsh words considering that 17 years after I accepted Jesus into my life, I got baptized (June 9th this year). It appears that Solomon may have taken the other one. I can no longer pray or go to church because I am SICK of the grinning liars who think lying to people is glorifying God. Everyday praying and thanking God. This book is filled with archaeological, historical, accurate in science accounts. If you write off God and the Bible, then there are no answers. I hope God reaches.out soon. We hqve to seek him in all the good and bad overall surrender to All in this body….He can use you mighty for his glory. Maybe God wanted me to be perfect first? God had to really do a lot to get my attention on that on scripture. Long story short I became an apostate that did indeed go back to god (backslid) after my backsliding I felt amazing the time that I wasnât with god I felt miserable thereâs no point of living if you arenât with god. That hellish experience shattered my faith. Verse Concepts. I have quit going to church and doing visitation. I don’t understand why God won’t help me to glorify Him with my ideas. The old testament is all Job had and God called Job “blameless and upright” & “no one on earth like him”. Day by day my condition gets worse and i don’t think I can hold.on any more. He gives you enough income to live in a house better than what half the world lives in. I went a few times but I need to heal. How sad to believe in a God after all the promises that the Bible says happens to believers, only to have the gifts of a life the very opposite of all the promises the Bible makes. And that’s understandable. It's debatable whether Elie completely lost his faith in God, but it surely is apparent that he changed vastly from his past enormously religious self. Hang in there by faith my friends, it won’t always be this way. Anthony, I know God’s got you. And I totally understand exactly what you are going through with the distancing. I don’t know how they could do it, but they had tapped into a lifeline with God that bypassed their circumstances and gave them a relationship with Him. NEVER give up, no matter what, no matter what and no matter what!!! God is a God of freewill thatâs why he gives you the will to discover and the heart to desire! God wants us to reach out to Him in faith, even when our faith feels very small. 12. Never mind all the defensive quotes about what he is interested in doing. Then my husband had to work overseas, I sacrificed my job and followed him. Take time to read the book of Job. Ultimately, are we choosing to agree with God, believe Him, or not?? Again, I can’t stress enuf to just do what you can and don’t stress. He refused because he was expecting God to provide a miracle. These were dreams. Don’t be so hard on yourself. Please know that God IS REALITY! I understand the desire to slip into a corner and remain unnoticed. The American Psychiatric Association associates the grief/ptsd from losing a loved one to suicide can be compared to that of a holocaust survivor and a combat war veteran. He did promise, however, that He would be with us and give us grace and strength so that we could survive the hard times. i tried to read the bible and pray. THAT NUMBER WILL STILL WORK AS WELL. And I feel different, like I’m grown and changed. He wanted me back in the church trying to use my daughter, making her not talk to me unless I went back to church!! Please strengthen us for the trials. For example I didn’t get a job after my under graduation in Engineering, after couple of years I got an offer at a very big MNC but that doesn’t mean I have been a successful Software Engineer in my job as payslips aren’t fat. What good are food and shelter without meaning? I can still think suicidal thoughts when bad things happen. Feel free to call our toll free number at 855.367.8788 for more discussion or reply here if you want to continue the discussion off line by e-mail. I feel like im losing faith sometimes……. I suggest you start reading the New Testament to give God something to work with in you. But you hit that annoying trait on the head. Wow Eric, I’m so encouraged by what u wrote. You may need to seek professional help for your condition, but I would also encourage you to seek out Christian friends to help you. The question I ask myself is, Am I going to let Him win? I want to be convicted of sin again. God says it doesn’t matter. I am envious of those who can have blind faith and not question what they are told. When it became public, he walked out his back door and shot himself, because he did not want to go to jail. He knows what’s happened and yes he has ultimately allowed it. God bless you as serve him. I can see the bad attitude you have because I too am prone to have a bad attitude when I feel that I can’t handle what’s happening in my life. i called my ex-wife and told her what was going on and ask if i can keep her for a few more days so i could talk to her and find out what was going on. Itâs not that you sit and wait on God to tell you every move to make. I feel alive! Please, can you help me? I pray to God I can help you to see that we are just like those people. Disbelief in God carries little weight without also a faith in ourselves as human beings. I will LB, I guess the point is this; I’ve looked at myself and I see nothing. But then after being saved in time I went back to my old ways (got back into drugs) I prayed to god and repented but didnât have any ambition to stop. To he honest, I wish that I could just go to sleep and not wake up tomorrow morning. You have options. Why Is the Lord Jesus Called Christ? I don’t even know if the devil and God are separate anymore. I still haven’t heard from God. I have to come back to reality and drop this delusion that because I don’t understand suffering and my disappointments that God is then somehow not good. Then I get even more depressed. Weekly devotional resources will help you grow in Christ. It’s nice when it does but it is rare. This I believe and know is true. You are truly blessed to have a family support your education and future. Don’t expect an immediate freaky miracle…although I fully believe that could happen. I lost my precious 15 yr old son. We become weak to the point of being unable to get back on track. I always lose no matter how earnest and how long I pray. You should have a message from me. It’s that simple. You can stay there forever but youâre heart will never quit searching! Please call our toll free number 833-678-7884 and talk to someone on our phone team. But now that Iâm older, Iâve started to question some things. I feel that I have absolutely no one to turn to now. The problem is that this choice doesn’t bring rest or peace, it brings hardship and suffering. I may be rambling to much but I really don’t know what to do. That would only end in disaster fast. I ended up take medications, which helped a lot. Jesus said, “Come unto me, all ye who are heavyladen and YOU WILL FIND REST.” You want rest? Everything my from issues as a child to even my mistakes in my marriage. I know, easy to say. For everyone, the witnessing of marvelous grace is more popular than truth and sermons. I was led so close to Jesus through His Spirit, but instead of letting go and trusting Him I turned away and doubted. But, I fail in that work, though I read Bible everyday. The book deals with the tragedies as well as the occurrences which has happened during the Holocaust and at the Nazi concentration camps. In fact trying to have another child just a few months before. Be at peace and God will defend you and show you what is really going on. Please don’t think you are alone or that God is a cruel taskmaster. This is the air I have to breath to live and survive. I prayed the Lord would show me a way and He has. Science eliminated the traditions that formerly made living an art form including the rain celebration of spring and traditional harvest festivals.â –LB” Feel free to call our toll-free number and someone will be happy to pray for you. Like why do I go to work…oh to use my God-given abilities make money, support myself and be a blessing to others…..sounds like it brings glory to God. 9 when I made the clouds its garment, People preach about faith,but I don’t understand that world fully. Someone will be happy to pray with you and help you to find Christian fellowship. And although I am very grateful, it wasn’t personal. And prayer doesn’t change anything. Jesus has the answer to your problems. Stop asking for things and give Him your pain, give Him your frustration. I’ve been tempted to walk away from God completely because I just cannot deal with it, how can anyone function 8n life with that hanging over their head God knows I’ve tried to. But I do believe like your Mother apparently did that God is real and that God loves you. We all need people who care. It’s not easy. I pray but itâs fruitless. Facing all this, she earnestly prayed to God for His mercy. Coming to US has been a journey full of obstacles but I thought the Great Almighty must have some better to offer for all the struggles I have done and my family is doing for I used to believe everything happens for good but right now I don’t have any faith Him. Why do you say, Israel, âMY WAY IS HIDDEN FROM THE LORD; MY CAUSE IS DISREGARDED BY MY GOD?” V. 27 It appears that when God asked Jacob this question, it reveals to us that what we’re suffering is not overlooked by Him. Jesus you told us that he who follows You will not stumble around in the dark but will have the Light that leads to Life. It seems to me that you are battling with depression and should find help for it. Many have been deeply and profoundly hurt in their souls. Pain is not pleasant to us. A child that shouts, âThank you for this amazing gift! Sorry this is so long. But that’s my mistake to think as I that Almighty is kind – I know He is there but not for me as in Life what I have thought or taken as target I could only find failures. Kayla! Questioning the existence of God can be a rather daunting experience to put it lightly, especially while you are in seminary. Psalm 30 also says, “You hid your face; I was dismayed. I know I have a Father. If bad things are going to happen even if one is a believer–then why pray? Although he, too, at times questioned why these things were happening to him, he always returned to God in faith. I ask to be filled with the Holy Spirit….this does not mean that I am not sealed with the Holy Spirit till the day of redemption aka my blessed assurance….this is a continual infilling of the Holy Spirit of God.. that’s all I know and I do like asking for the Holy Spirit, just the confession that I want the Holy Spirit…the Spirit of Truth, so then I will ask God to help me to see where I may not being doing or seeing things right. I’ll quote it here: Your question reminded me of the testimony of John Bunyan (author of Pilgrim’s Progress). Do good in the world. Psalm 78:15-17 He split the rocks in the desert and gave them water as abundant as the seas; [16] he brought streams out of a rocky crag and made water flow down like rivers. One last thing, I have had tangible spiritual feelings during prayers. Have you lost track of God somehow? Another example, before getting job I did my graduation (Master’s in Engineering)under scholarship. I almost lost the ability to become a mother before I had any of my children…before I was ever saved, yet here was this miracle connection to the right doctor to saved my ability to have children…absolute truth. I come from a dysfunctional family.Apart from my dad,I was not close to anyone in my family(mom,siblings).Till date I couldnt make out the reason as to why do they treat my like an outsider.I lost my dad this year.I live in an area where neighbours are worst to the core.Eavesdropping,spying,irritating,harassing,bullying,I might run out of words to describe these people behaviour. Most people spend their lives looking for love! Please help me understand itâs been years of this I cannot take it any longer. though this myself and I’ve been beating myself up about it. One time she took so many pills and called my uncle. While I was fixing my kids supper and tucking them in each night. I’ve lost all hope. If God treats us this badly on earth, how much more pain will Heaven be. Blessings. There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away.â Rev 21:4. 17 Have the gates of death been revealed to you, It seems that God gives everything to people who don’t even believe in Him, and nothing but pain and suffering to those who love Him. It would be best for you to find someone you can related to face to face. God is with you, He loves you and He will answer those prayers that you pray to walk in holiness and to shape u, mold u, teach u. grow in the fruit of the Holy Spirit, increase your gifts. The only physical part associated with you. That’s the real deal. Once i hear him i grab my christ head and clutch it to make satan go away. I need help getting my faith back! The event traumatised me so baldy I stopped going to college, nearly commitTed suicide, asked God to kill me etc. This does not negate the hurt caused by many of God’s people through the years. Our suffering goes on. God bless you my sister. The ONLY thing that has been of any help to me is the Catholic story and devotion to the “Divine Mercy”. (Isa 53:3-10). You have a beautiful gift. The devil can come up with some very reasonable sounding reasons for committing suicide. I can feel for you. This website uses cookies to improve your experience. You, my friend, are a blessing too! I’m not going through anything difficult except being discontent with job, relationships, etc. As iron sharpens iron, so a man sharpens the countenance of his friend. But the night shines as the day; Please help me. It’s just that I know something made us I’m not that naive, to think I came from a monkey, if that were the case why do we still have monkeys… God help us! The Word of God says FAITH comes by HEARING. But recently one night I thought about heaven and thought “that seems so stupid” and it actually shook me a bit, I felt that i actually meant it. I would install cameras if you could to prove their illegal activity to the police. As a result of their doubts, they may stop worshipping and communicating with God, which in turn, makes it even easier for their faith to diminish and eventually die. Funny how I thought I had hatred of liars in common with God but no. I’ve been a Christian since I was a little girl. Jesus IS the way, the truth and the life! Please let these words encourage you. We need to fill the emptiness! I’d love to see a positive post from you. Pastor John Wagner. The devil would have us blame God for it, but God wants to help us through these times. Rather, it is Satan trying to block you from meeting God. My own personal suspicion is that our nation has strayed so far into sin collectively that He may be removing His protective hand from our nation. They feel feel worthless, undervalued and that no one will miss them, and even that the world will be better off without them. But we act, and I know I do unfortunately act like that’s what He’s going to do. I used to pray every day, God let your will be done and not mine, every day, every day. I also know several men who wanted to commit suicide but God stopped them from doing so. 12 âHave you commanded the morning since your days began, you either make it on your own or you don’t ! Go to a pastor or counsellor. Sorry that I cant help you but know you are not alone in these thoughts. WOW! But my constant prayers don’t seem to be helping either, no matter how often I keep trying to believe that God will come through. But remember that these things are the result of sin, not because God doesn’t hear you. An existence of misery is what is destroying my faith. I really do need a sign right now. I just feel like my life is f**** BUT that’s just my bad attitude talking. I don’t know how. But God won’t force anyone to comply against his will. Anyone would feel bad about that. Make your family your priority to spend quality time, give of yourself, your love, your humor, your unstressed self and they will have riches that last a life time. To learn more about Jesus, read the Gospels in the New Testament. Some people take this as they need to move on from who they are with because they arenât meant to Be with them! I acknowledge that I have no clue how He will do this because it seems hopeless to me. Lately I’ve been feeling myself drifting more and more away from my faith. A quick explanation, Read the Bible from Gen to Revelations. Then I will slowly go about taking the steps needed. As far as Romans 9 goes, note that Paul used Pharaoh as an illustration of what he was speaking of. Glad you didn’t do the ten years friend, sometimes we gotta make positive things in our life happen despite what bad stuff comes our way. I’m so sorry that you have been going through a lot of pain and struggles. And remember that God will never leave you nor abandon you, 5. Blasphemous thoughts rattle my brain, blasphemous attitudes I never thought I would have toward Him. You have Christian brothers and sisters! I lost a long standing job in 2009 and everything else in 2016 including our home of 22 years. Iâve felt the same way, but I read of someone else who was struggling and decided to live for God anyway because it was likely that this universe did not appear by chance. In Matthew 26:39 He prayed, âMy Father, if it is possible, let this cup pass from me. But as one redeemed by the blood of the Lamb, I know I must. Last night, I just thought, “I reject the Holy Spirit”, then boom! There are things that we were not built to deal with and causes trauma. My now ex-wife lost three children over two pregnancies during our marriage. I always say luck is of the devil because God blesses all, the devil’s system gets us into this rat race of if ur lucky enuf…and all the other demonic depressing stuff that makes the soul sick. They are so comforting. Because of free will, God had no say in my disability being granted. Losing Faith in God in Seminary? And so life is really meaningless if you are only going to live to go to hell one day ð. She said that losing faith in God seemed like ⦠Since we have people from all over the United States and even some from Canada, they may even know someone from your area that they could help you to contact. After working for couple of years, I started to think that I need to get back into academics because I really love Physics, Chemistry and Mathematics and I think I have good imaginations and want to discover or innovate something new that would help mankind. Memorize verses. Therefore, it is the law of heaven and earth that we people should believe in and worship God. Wow, like what a story and how unlikely for God to use him but we can see God’s hand in his life since he was young. How am I ment to carry on with somethino that pushes me to the brink of suicide and complete depression. Another bit of advice I’d say is to learn healthy boundaries. In your belief in God, what do you expect to receive from Him? My 4 daughter was being raped and molested by my ex-wife boyfriend and it been going on for over a 1 year. Our Lord does indeed answer our prayers. Although he, too, at times questioned why these things were happening to him, he always returned to God in faith. I hear your pain and discouragement and upset and disappointment and if I hear it God certainly does too. Then, there comes a day when God turns His face away from us and baptizes us in discipline, frustrations, diseases, and trials. They went to the neighbors to play. Prayer, Bible reading, and fellowship. I hated the people who were responsible for the injustice and I fantasized about killing them. You can email me by replying to that email. Of this, I am absolutely certain. You eloquently described exactly how I am feeling right now….I have had to fight for faith for many reasons that I had no power over…No matter what happened in my life, good or bad, I always “thanked God” for what I was going through…I am 56 years old, not a child, and all I know to say is God has taken away everything and anyone that I have loved the most. It was obviously heartfelt and kind, and very moving. But I know He can and He will. We are nothing more than chattel to Him. I know people think I am just hurting right now saying this, but it has something I have been praying about and discussing with spirtual leaders for months now and I truely believe this is where I am at and going to remain. I keep praying asking god why me what have I ever done to deserve this. I think you need more help than I can give you in a paragraph online. I felt lead to share this section of scripture from Job: Job 38:1-18 Believing, hoping. I would like to share somethings with you.#1Unforgiveness opens the door for the evil. I feel like God is punishing me. So I always pray and believe that God wants to heal but I also trust Him with the things I am not going to understand. I cried out to God for the pain of my only son dying and was reminded that God knew that pain too. I just can’t get past the resurrection and the impact that it makes on my belief. Poor Jesus, having to beg people to believe Him. I’m so active in ministry and encouraging others. I’ve rebelled against God because I was so angry and depressed at how anyone should have to suffer in that way. 2014 God took my mother from me, she was the only person I could talk to. Why does He let my faith be shaken to the point of no longer believing? I saw them twice last year but they don’t seem to miss me and they are happy so I leave it alone and accept it. C’mon! And under the NT Jesus told us that His yoke is easy His burden is light. At least, before I’d feel guilty about it. Seven years of persecution from him and prayer…and God delivered him miraculously from alcoholism and then after a while he got saved….but after all that, things went bad again. I am unemployed, no money of my own, sick, depressed and questioning why God did this to me, have I been a terrible person? On Losing the Faith. I went to the Doctor They told me i had PTSD and gave me medication. Do I deserve this? I dont have anymore faith in anything and its too much to bear. I pray to our Father that he provide for you in every way. Kick yourself in the pants if you have to… I do it to myself too, when I know I need it. He loves you. I have given him everything in my life, and received nothing but silence. I’m at a loss.. I’ve fooled myself for years thinking i was Christian enough. Look at Joseph, God’s hand in his life, then -boom- his brothers do something so horrible to him, his life ends as he knew it, loses his family, now he’s a slave then he’s unjustly accused by a terrible woman, then in jail…..but GOD….2nd in all of Egypt and used to same his family, God’s people and even the evil nation of Egypt because God makes it rain on the just and unjust…. Receive a brief inspirational email once or twice a week. He persecutes me because of my beliefs. That IS HARD. Go to https://gospelbillboards.org/free-books/ on this website and order the free book by Gary Miller, HOW CAN ANYONE SAY GOD IS GOOD? Ken, if you’d like to discuss this privately by email, let me know and I’ll send you an email address you can use. #3 – hopeless, 40 years of unanswered prayers will strip all hope away. Your Savior wants to give you a greater love than you’ve ever known. âThis is my body given for you; do this in remembrance of me.â In the same way, after the supper he took the cup, saying, âThis cup is the new covenant in my blood, which is poured out for youââ (Luke 22:19-21). GOD PLEASE LISTEN TO OUR CRIES FOR POSTIVE HEALING , HEALTH AND DECADES OF LIFE HERE ON EARTH WITH OUR MOM AND OUR DAD. I miss the way my life felt before all of this. We need and want truth. If it’s only me and Jesus, that’s not bad at all. You lack Faith because you have not read his word. His wife even suggested that he curse God and die. 11. It may get tiring fighting with yourself both mentally and emotionally but don’t give uo because God has a plan for your life and wouldn’t rather His plan than yours? Now I have severe anxiety and mild depression and feel awful in myself. Love hurts! Itâs comforting to know there are others like me too. Read the gospels. 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